Friday, December 30th, 2022

Pieces of Separate Puzzles

It feels as though I’m floating off the the earth and am grasping for something to hold me down. Therefore, I’m publishing blog posts on Tuesday and Friday’s — even if they disseminate my failures or go in wild directions.

Because I need to find my voice. And how you find your voice is using it, paradoxically, writes Austin Kleon of “Show Your Work.” You envision futures, on the other hand, and regret the past, never realizing anything.

Likewise, Robert Greene says to attack one project at a time, or they’ll all fall through. And true to their word, from the Internet’s perspective, I haven’t done anything for five years, despite filled crates of notes and a well-implemented morning writing habit.

To sum up, I bought into the myth Kleon warns of, which is if I huddle in darkness for long enough, I’ll eventually be ready to spring out and surprise the world. Hah.

Psychologist Alfred Adler says that happiness is feeling a contribution to others; more than anything, this is what should guide us.

But I have three, even five projects I’m interested to contribute to others: one to help video editors; one to help anyone with a brain; one to help my family’s homestead; and two that would potentially fulfill a childhood dream. So I’m torn.

Most my time has gone to the first. I’ve become terribly passionate about the second, but know passions are fleeting. Helping my family might become a necessity; and the final two are leaning on completely selfish — putting efforts toward becoming a performer.

So I’m reading Michael Hyatt’s Free To Focus, having to cast away thoughts of his productivity methods being excessive — but I need any guidance I can get. And January will be a month of figuring this out, The Daily Laws sure to help.

So join me next Tuesday. Because I’m feeling intrinsically the consequences of not joining you.